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    <title><![CDATA[An Open Letter]]></title>
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    <description><![CDATA[Dear A Certain Person I Know,

I just thought I would let you know that I hate you, and yes I know that hate is a super strong word but honestly it's the truth. I hate you with a fiery passion that burns deep. I hate you and I always will hate you for what you have done to me and my loved ones. When you were around I would simply deal with you and your harsh criticism and hurtful jokes, and when you first left I honestly was really sad. I didn't want it to be over between you two but now that it is I am so happy that it is, because that person deserves so much better than your scummy self. Your rebound is a piece of scum that needs to fade away into oblivion, along with the nasty spawn she brought onto this Earth. I have always hated you and what you are, you and I are different people and I am so happy that I am like the other person rather than you. We may look the same, but thankfully we will never be the same because I never want to be a disgusting person. Karma is a good friend of mine and she is a mega bitch, so hopefully one day you will get what is coming to you. The next time you see me, you won't see al of me just the soles of my feet rapidly moving, because I'll be dancing on your grave. 

Love and Kisses,
Madison]]></description>
	  	<dc:subject>Buzznet</dc:subject>
    <dc:creator>xxmadisonmischiefxx</dc:creator>
    <dc:date>2008-11-15T14:44:00Z</dc:date>
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    <title><![CDATA[Cutting Ties]]></title>
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    <description><![CDATA[I have finally broken off all ties with my sister and oh man does this feel so good! Now people are probably thinking is she sick? Why would she want absolutely nothing to do with her sister? Well basically when your sister works with your old supposed best friends to make your life a living hell, it really starts to make you wonder why the hell should I associate myself with this person. It is almost like it is her life's goal to turn my life into a living hell, and I finally cannot take it anymore.

Tonight at dinner after my brother told her to apologize for what she did (which was getting me in trouble of course!), I said the following:

"Sorry? sorry for what? For helping people make my life a living hell? For doing whatever you can to make me unhappy and miserable? You know if you actually meant what you said, I might be able to forgive you but because you don't I just can't. I can't get over the pain and agony you have caused, and because of that I don't accept your apology. Because of that I don't want anything to do with you, I feel that you are a cold-hearted, mean spirited and worthless human being and I don't need somebody like that in my life. I prefer to associate myself with people who bring positive energy with them, and who are going to be there for me and support me. I need you like a person needs a flesh eating virus, yeah you are that bad. Don't talk to me, don't look my way, pretend I don't exist. In my world you don't exist so I feel it should be the same in your life, so keep living with your insecure thoughts and your love of being a complete bitch, it seems to be really working for you."

As I leave I hear the sound of a girl in distress, I look straight ahead and walk away. The shoes have been switched now, welcome to my life you ungrateful little slimeball!]]></description>
	  	<dc:subject>Buzznet</dc:subject>
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    <dc:date>2008-11-06T16:09:00Z</dc:date>
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    <title><![CDATA[Only The Lonely]]></title>
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    <description><![CDATA[It seems that all my friends are in relationships and have that amazing significant other, and while I try my best to be happy for everybody I can't help but realize how lonely I am. I mean I'm no Sleeping Beauty or Snow White, I don't need a knight in shining armor to come and sweep me off my feet. I don't need a boy to make me feel better about myself, but when you see how happy everybody around you is, it makes you realize just how badly you want somebody like that. I haven't had that much success in the boyfriend department, each one being a poop head in the end and always disappointing me. This hasn't made me totally against the idea of having a boyfriend though, but i'm not going to go out of my way to find somebody. When he comes, he will come and usually when I least expect it. It's just that hearing my friends gush about their significant others, and seeing how happy they are is making me realize just how badly I want that. I want my cheeks to hurt from smiling so much, my heart to melt and my stomach to churn. I just want that and hopefully I will get that.]]></description>
	  	<dc:subject>Buzznet</dc:subject>
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    <dc:date>2008-10-26T14:38:00Z</dc:date>
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    <title><![CDATA[This Is Me]]></title>
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    <description><![CDATA[If you haven't noticed this is my first journal in a very long time and in a way this saddens me. I haven't really been an active member for a little while now, and if I do come on I just look at things and read what's going on. Everybody has been posting some really great things, but I just haven't felt like commenting. I've decided to type up this journal and basically tell you all what is going on in my life, so here we go:

I have something called Depression, and no not the type of "depression" a 14 year old fan girl gets when she can't get tickets to see her favorite band, I have real depression and it is something i've been dealing with for an extremely long time. I've talked about it before on Buzznet, but I've never really talked about how it affects me. It's been affecting me lately and it's been making me extremely lazy. There are some mornings I just don't want to leave my bed because I don't see the point in getting up and seeing the day. I just don't see the point in doing things which in the end makes me extremely sad, so because of this I have been forcing myself to do things that I know make me happy. It hasn't really been working, and for some reason whenever I get onto the computer I feel even more depressed. I get really sad and emotional for some reason and just think negative, it always happens on the internet but even outside the internet. I rarely think positively to be honest, I'm extremely pessimistic and always think about the bad. My paranoia probably makes this worse, but I am working with it and trying my best. I've been having some friend drama so far this year which is really just adding to everything to be honest. I feel as if life is getting more complicated every day and it just really saddens me and I don't know what to do.

It feels good to rant about stuff like this and to get it off my chest. I am always dealing with this but for some reason it's just been really bad lately. I hope that I can resolve this issue and get back on the right track, I mean i've done it before and I really want to do it again!]]></description>
	  	<dc:subject>Buzznet</dc:subject>
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    <dc:date>2008-10-20T18:50:00Z</dc:date>
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    <title><![CDATA[Drama]]></title>
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    <description><![CDATA[Will make you physically sick, trust me I am from all the drama this is going on.

What's worse is that some of the people involved don't know what's going on. I mean that girl that is being a shitty friend knows that something is up and knows that I want nothing to do with her, but she feels that she hasn't done anything wrong and because of that she is saying horrible things about me and saying that I do stuff like this for fun. Right, because getting tension headaches and having horrible stomach aches is something that I aim for. She is also doing whatever she can to turn people against me, even a guy that I like and who likes me. She was upset that this boy she liked was flirting with me so her way of getting back at me is flirting and offering sexual favors to a guy that I really like. I know that if he caves and listens to her than I never should have considered him, but it just makes me sad that all of this is happening.

I'm just really sad which really sucks since I was so happy and now all this crap is happening. Pray for me Buzznet, pray for me!

Madison.]]></description>
	  	<dc:subject>Buzznet</dc:subject>
    <dc:creator>xxmadisonmischiefxx</dc:creator>
    <dc:date>2008-09-30T18:47:00Z</dc:date>
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    <title><![CDATA[My Life Is A Movie]]></title>
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    <description><![CDATA[One dramatic event quickly following another!

So far life has been great this year, I have met new people and have finally seen the light and decided that writing truly is my passion. I have experimented with many things such as photography and design, and I have to come to realize something that I should have known all along. I have been writing since 5th grade and it has always has been fun for me, I mean when the kids in my my class moaned and groaned about writing essays I was excited. I always loved English class and the writing we had to do, and when it came down for discussion and putting that into words on paper I was happy. I have found something that will make me happy in life and will be fulfilling. I really want to be a journalist and write about important issues, or maybe even music and fashion. I know most people think that journalist are these sleazy jerks who will do anything for a story, but that won't be the same for me. I want to be a journalist that is known for her great writing, and for getting the information the right way. I have the support of my family and because of them and my dreams things will happen for me.


One thing however that I don' really like about this year is that my friend is so desperate for a boyfriend and will do anything for one. She claims that I am her best friend and that she would never do anything to hurt me, well if that was true she wouldn't have offered sexual favors to a boy that I really like. I just don't understand her way of thinking and what made her think it was okay, I would never ever do something like that. I mean doesn't she understand the girl rule? I should of known this would happen though, she did after all cancel Halloween plans at the last minute last year for a boy that in the end ditched her on Halloween. I'm just happy that i'm done with her, because now I know who are my true friends and who I can trust. She just so happens to not be one of those people and because of that I am done. True friends are like diamonds, when you find one they are priceless and are dear to your heart. They will always be there and will always make you smile. They are special and will always be special, and I am so thankful that I have that both on and off the internet.


I don't go on Buzznet as much as I used to, but I will always be here no matter what. During the summer I wanted to leave this place because I felt that it just wasn't the same. I thought that everything that was good was changing and that really bothered me. Now I just know that Buzznet is once again that place I come to for ranting and talking to some really super awesome people. I used to feel that whatever I said or did was not good enough, and that I would get crucified for stating my opinion and that I just wasn't witty enough.  Thanks to my wonderful friend and the great administrators for setting me straight though, you all are amazing and you will always be very close to my heart.]]></description>
	  	<dc:subject>Buzznet</dc:subject>
    <dc:creator>xxmadisonmischiefxx</dc:creator>
    <dc:date>2008-09-27T20:52:00Z</dc:date>
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    <title><![CDATA[The Quickest Way To Piss Me Off]]></title>
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    <description><![CDATA[It takes a lot to me me furious, I may debate a lot on here but but I really am very laid back person. What really pisses me off though is when a person think it's okay to say something rude and offensive to others. When two untalented idiots who are only famous because the whole world hates them disses a website, don't respond with "those jews". Not only does it make you look ignorant and insensitive, but it also makes you look like a complete asshole. Even if it was meant to be a joke it isn't fun, a lot of people are sensitive so you really have to watch what you say. You know Jews have been persecuted for thousands of years, it goes beyond and before the Holocaust and even it happens now. Jews make up 2% of the population, there aren't many of us but sadly for those anti-semitic idiots we still exist! As you all know i'm all for expressing the opinion, but sometimes you just need to know when to keep your mouth shut. If it's offensive don't say it, when I state my opinion I try my best not to offend the other person I am talking with (if I ever have I am sorry). All in all learn a little and think before you act and speak, it will really help you out in life.


To get off this intense but very much needed to be addressed topic I thought I would share a "headline" poem I wrote in creative writing today. What you had to do was to look at newspaper headlines and cut out words that you liked, and I choose my words and came up with a very nice political poem. I would say it's about Barack Obama, but it could be about any nominee in history that has given us hope and inspiration. Well here we go:




A Gift by Madison Mischief(gahh I hate this name)

The first nominee, crafty as a fox.
A powerful star.
Calls for more recognition.
New magic may be created.
A tale of grace.
Goodbye past economy.
Sunshine erupts.


Hope you liked it!

xxmaddiexx

p.s My dog Oliver just ate a breadstick and he's chilling on his back now digesting haha, he's so freaking cute!]]></description>
	  	<dc:subject>Buzznet</dc:subject>
    <dc:creator>xxmadisonmischiefxx</dc:creator>
    <dc:date>2008-09-09T16:28:00Z</dc:date>
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    <title><![CDATA[Surveys And Kissing Boys]]></title>
    <link>http://xxmadisonmischiefxx.buzznet.com/user/journal/2938221/surveys-kissing-boys/</link>
    <description><![CDATA[1)How are you at the moment?<br /> Been better.<br />  <br />  2) Why?<br />  Just some stuff going on that I need to work through .<br />  <br />  3) Give me 5 bestest persons at buzz.<br /> Just check out my top five.  4) Do you like yourself?<br /> Sometimes.<br />  <br />  5) What do you like to do in your free time?<br />  write, read, listen, talk, more<br />  <br />  6) Do you think you're able to do everything you'd like to [right now, from that place, are you confident enough //not in future]?<br />  I don't think so.<br />  <br />  7) Do you think fighting makes any sense?<br />Depends I suppose. <br />  <br />  8) Was last question clever?<br />  No.<br />  <br />  9) Which places would you like to visit?<br />  Japan.<br />  <br />  10) Honestly, give me one person from buzz, who made you feel special, like their friend? <br />  Jaimy aka Roflcopter.<br />  <br />  11) What's your mobile phone?<br />  The razor.<br />  <br />  12) Would you like to have (new) one?<br />  Yes getting new one soon.<br />  <br />  13) Do you like to smile?<br /> Sometimes.<br />  <br />  14) Write poems?<br />  Nope.<br />  <br />  15) Eat?<br />  Yupp.<br />  <br />  16) English?<br />  I speak it?<br />  <br />  17) French?<br />  Don't know any French.<br />  <br />  18) Slovene?<br />  What about it?<br />  <br />  19) Polish?<br /> I'm a little Polish.<br />  <br />  20) Sports?<br />  Kickball, haha down with the Elementary School sports.<br />  <br />  21) Internet?<br />  Serious Business my friends!<br />  <br />  22) Do you think life gets better or worse day by day?<br />  Depends on if you surround yourself with negative or positive energy.<br />  <br />  23) Are you nervous or calm person?<br />  Both.<br />  <br />  24) Is there any message you'd like to tell the world?<br />  Life is short, live each day like it's your last<br />  <br />  25) What's your favourite line in the song?<br />  Way too many!<br />  <br />  26) The cutest thing you've ever heard?<br />  I don't really know.<br />  <br />  27) Do you love your parents?<br />  Yes, of course.<br />  <br />  28)What would you do if tomorrow is the last day of your life?<br />  Do everything I have always dreamed of doing.<br />  <br />  29)Do you often think about death?<br />  Once in a while.<br />  <br />  30) Is this the last question?<br />  I guess.<br />  <br />  <br />  Ten Guys That I Want To Kiss<br />  <br />  10.Shia Labeouf<br />  9. Mark Ronson<br />  8. Shaun White (I have a thing for red heads)<br />  7. Danny Masterson (I like him so much oh man!)<br />  6. Ed Westwick<br />  5. Any of the Culkin brothers<br />  4. Justin Chatwin<br />  3. David Henrie<br />  2. Emile Hirsch<br />  1. Joe Jonas<br />  <br />  <br />  I tag anybody that wants to do any of these, i'm so far behind on all of this.]]></description>
	  	<dc:subject>Buzznet</dc:subject>
    <dc:creator>xxmadisonmischiefxx</dc:creator>
    <dc:date>2008-08-29T21:26:00Z</dc:date>
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    <title><![CDATA[Got A Question For Tokio Hotel]]></title>
    <link>http://http://tokiohotel.buzznet.com/user/journal/2864381/submit-interview-questions-us/</link>
    <description><![CDATA[<a href="http://http://tokiohotel.buzznet.com/user/journal/2864381/submit-interview-questions-us/" class="imglink"><img src="" border="0" alt="Got A Question For Tokio Hotel" title="Got A Question For Tokio Hotel" /></a><br />Tokio Hotel wants you to ask them whatever you want; whether it be who their next tour partners are, or how Bill get's his hair so big?(My question actually haha). Ask away and maybe they will answer your question!]]></description>
	  	<dc:subject>Buzznet</dc:subject>
    <dc:creator>xxmadisonmischiefxx</dc:creator>
    <dc:date>2008-08-18T18:45:00Z</dc:date>
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    <title><![CDATA[The Jonas Brothers on Inspiration, The Ipod and Their Fans]]></title>
    <link>http://http://jonasbrothers.buzznet.com/user/video/3451501/jonas-brothers-their-inspiration-ipod/</link>
    <description><![CDATA[<a href="http://http://jonasbrothers.buzznet.com/user/video/3451501/jonas-brothers-their-inspiration-ipod/" class="imglink"><img src="" border="0" alt="The Jonas Brothers on Inspiration The Ipod and Their Fans" title="The Jonas Brothers on Inspiration The Ipod and Their Fans" /></a><br />The Jonas Brothers have officially come to Buzznet! Am I the only one pumped or what? Anyway they posted a video about their extremely dedicated fans, what inspires them and the Ipod. Check it out and while you're at it add them as a friend! I can assure you that the Jonas Brothers will bring a lot of great content to the site!]]></description>
	  	<dc:subject>Buzznet</dc:subject>
    <dc:creator>xxmadisonmischiefxx</dc:creator>
    <dc:date>2008-08-18T15:54:00Z</dc:date>
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  <item rdf:about="http://xxmadisonmischiefxx.buzznet.com/user/journal/2865061/rash-decisions-never-good/">
    <title><![CDATA[Rash Decisions Are Never Good]]></title>
    <link>http://xxmadisonmischiefxx.buzznet.com/user/journal/2865061/rash-decisions-never-good/</link>
    <description><![CDATA[Yesterday I made a rash decision because of how stressed and upset I was. Life has been stressful lately, been dealing with some new changes that I don't like but have to get used to. When I usually sign into my username I feel relaxed and have fun, yesterday I didn't get that feeling. I haven't gotten that feeling on this website for so long and I just felt that maybe my time to leave had come. However a very wise woman once said in a journal comment that the good outweighs the bad and to stick through it. Although I have these problems with Buzznet, I know other users who are having the same problems and want them to just stop. I feel that as a community we need to work together and just try work together and become closer. I don't want to deal with the cliques anymore or feel like I have to fit in, I want it to be fun again and to have friendships that will last a lifetime. I feel though that in order to fix this problem we need to step away from it and just take a break. I need to step away from Buzznet and get away from all the negative energy I feel is surrounding. Hopefully when I come back I will be refreshed and ready to deal with all the problems I am facing and that others are facing. We need to come together as a community and in the end I feel that we will become stronger as a whole!]]></description>
	  	<dc:subject>Buzznet</dc:subject>
    <dc:creator>xxmadisonmischiefxx</dc:creator>
    <dc:date>2008-08-15T20:16:00Z</dc:date>
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  <item rdf:about="http://xxmadisonmischiefxx.buzznet.com/user/journal/2858111/ive-seen-light-end-tunnel/">
    <title><![CDATA[I've Seen The Light, It's The End Of The Tunnel For Me]]></title>
    <link>http://xxmadisonmischiefxx.buzznet.com/user/journal/2858111/ive-seen-light-end-tunnel/</link>
    <description><![CDATA[I joined good old Buzznet in December of 2006, excited for new friendships and fun times that would lay ahead. There were fun times and tough times, but in the beginning the good outweighed the bad. Now it just doesn't seem that way, seriously all of you seem to have a giant stick up your butt's that doesn't want to leave. I know I used to do some of the stuff that people have been doing, however I have recently realized that what I was doing was mean. I was becoming a mega bitch and that is something I don't want to be known for. Below are a couple reasons as to why this may be my last day on Buzznet, a place that was meant for friends and music.

1. I sometimes feel like I am the kid who sits down at the lunch table only to realize that everybody has gotten up and moved. This website is so freaking cliquey and it bothers the heck out of me. I also hate how i'm treated on here, you can't just say to me that you never considered me a friend and think we can be friends again right away because I said I don't like a certain scene person. You can't just expect me to feel okay after I have dropped notes asking how you were doing, yet never getting a response. I mean seriously, I have feelings and when stuff like this happens I feel hurt. I treat my friends well on here and I never try to offend anybody, if I offend you i'm sorry but tell me so we can work things out. I feel out of place on here now and that i'm just not good enough or witty enough for you people. 


2. The Badges: Dear people who created the site, DELETE THE FREAKING BADGES ALREADY! I am so sick of people getting butchered for asking a simple question about the buzzmaker badge or stating an opinion about it, and then people freaking attack. The badges are like a popularity contest in my opinion and it just really bothers me. If you don't like the badge talk then ignore it, why pay attention to it at all?


3. Stupid drama bulletins: I won't lie I used to participate in them and do what people have been doing, but I have stopped doing it because you know what it's just plain rude. They are stupid and pointless bulletins meant to hurt people in my opinion so why continue on with them.

Everyday I start to not like this website anymore, I dislike what it has become. I am seriously done, done writing for this website and done with all the meanness. I know I have been mean and been rude when stating my opinion but that is done, i'm done with being buzznet's most hated. It's a shitty title and if you want it then take if off my hands I don't want it! I'm don with being called a loser and a bitch, i'm done with people acting like shitty friends, i'm just done.]]></description>
	  	  		  	<category>friend</category>
	  	  		  	<category>library</category>
	  	  		  	<category>reflect</category>
	  	<dc:subject>Buzznet,friend,library,reflect</dc:subject>
    <dc:creator>xxmadisonmischiefxx</dc:creator>
    <dc:date>2008-08-14T16:33:00Z</dc:date>
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  <item rdf:about="http://xxmadisonmischiefxx.buzznet.com/user/journal/2771931/kind-makes-me-angry/">
    <title><![CDATA[It Kind Of Makes Me Angry]]></title>
    <link>http://xxmadisonmischiefxx.buzznet.com/user/journal/2771931/kind-makes-me-angry/</link>
    <description><![CDATA[My boss laid me off today and I am quite upset about this! I have had this job for a very long time now and I have bonded with all the children that I work with. I know I would complain about my job, how the dirty diapers and throwing up made me want to tear my hair out, and the attitude the kids possessed was headache inducing. However, the kids view me as somebody who is there for them and who will take care of them when mommy and daddy are away. I may be the youngest person at my job which is the reason why I was laid off, but I definitely care more about the job and have a lot more experience than my other co-workers. This one girl that was hired for the summer wears ear plugs, texts all day, doesn't know how to change diapers and refuses to learn! My other co-worker is horrible with the kids, she screams at them and is just really rough around them. Why not get rid of one of these incompetent workers? It's horrible that a 21 year old who has no experience with children beats out a 17 year old girl who has babysat and has had a previous job at a nursery school. What also really bothers me is that my boss lied to me, she said she needed my employment for the whole summer. There are two weeks of camp left and I am being laid off because all of a sudden they just don't need me anymore. I know our economy is in the crapper and that is why jobs are being taken away, however take away the right person. Who is going to sit Edward in their lap and read Cat In The Hat a million times so he won't scream bloody murder for his mother, and eventually throw up all over the classroom? Who is going to teach Sandra how to draw her S's so she can make her parents proud, and feel good about herself? Who is going to stick up for Lucas and Chris, who always seem to get into trouble for no reason just because my co-worker favors Michael, the real troublemaker? Who is going to chase Andrew around the lunchroom and get him to eat some lunch? Who is going to walk little Isabel to the parking lot and get her to her car safely, because her mother is too lazy to enter the building and calls us when she is here? Who is going to give Olivia her hug when she wakes up from her nap and tell her that mommy is coming soon? Yeah I did a pretty fucking good job so far this summer and I just don't understand why I am getting laid off. I don't deserve this and since tomorrow is my last day I definitely will be giving my boss a piece of my mind. I won't be messed with like this, this isn't right and I will fight for what is right.]]></description>
	  	<dc:subject>Buzznet</dc:subject>
    <dc:creator>xxmadisonmischiefxx</dc:creator>
    <dc:date>2008-07-30T15:45:00Z</dc:date>
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  <item rdf:about="http://xxmadisonmischiefxx.buzznet.com/user/journal/2671341/ive-been-inspired/">
    <title><![CDATA[I've Been Inspired]]></title>
    <link>http://xxmadisonmischiefxx.buzznet.com/user/journal/2671341/ive-been-inspired/</link>
    <description><![CDATA[I've been reading some of the bulletins lately and honestly i've been inspired to write a journal. If you haven't noticed there haven't been a lot of rant journals about the scene on buzznet lately. The reason for this is probably because the time for ranters to rejoice has come, the scene is coming to an end! People are finally realizing that you don't have to have colored hair to impress people, and that claiming to be "hardcore" and tough on the internet is stupid. The scene is coming to an end and it also making people wonder what trend is next? Scene became the new emo, so what shall replace scene?<br />  <br />  As people try to think about what will happen next, I personally hope that the next trend will be just being yourself. Hopefully it won't be a trend and it will just stick. Hopefully people will realize that being yourself is the best thing and that trying to impress people is so stupid and overrated. No more wearing a band on your t-shirt you don't even listen to because it's a cool band! No more wearing Hello Kitty on your t-shirt because it is a scene icon and everybody for some reason loves it. It's all about doing things that make you happy and in the end just pleasing yourself. Who cares what other people think? If somebody doesn't like what you are about and what makes you happy who cares? Not everybody can like you but at least you are making yourself happy! In the end you only have one life to live and you should live it to the fullest. Be happy and be who you want to be, don't change yourself for anybody!]]></description>
	  	<dc:subject>Buzznet</dc:subject>
    <dc:creator>xxmadisonmischiefxx</dc:creator>
    <dc:date>2008-07-12T20:30:00Z</dc:date>
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  <item rdf:about="http://xxmadisonmischiefxx.buzznet.com/user/journal/2616621/i-think-i-need-break/">
    <title><![CDATA[I Think I Need A Break]]></title>
    <link>http://xxmadisonmischiefxx.buzznet.com/user/journal/2616621/i-think-i-need-break/</link>
    <description><![CDATA[I've been really stressful and just been going through a lot, and I really haven't had a lot of inspiration lately. My latest project here on buzznet feels like a job to be honest and I haven't really been enjoying it lately. For some reason my love for this website is starting to fade and well it's depressing me a little bit. I used to talk to people a lot more on here and now I only talk to a few of my friends, and it just seems like nothing new and exciting is going on, with maybe just a few exceptions. It's just a lot of the same drama and i'm really sick of it. I don't really know what is going on but all I know is that I may just need a little break to get my stuff together and to just get my act together. This does not mean I am leaving buzznet I couldn't do that because I love this website a lot and have met such amazing people. I just need a little me time I guess you can say but don't worry I will be back in no time!]]></description>
	  	<dc:subject>Buzznet</dc:subject>
    <dc:creator>xxmadisonmischiefxx</dc:creator>
    <dc:date>2008-07-02T18:03:00Z</dc:date>
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  <item rdf:about="http://xxmadisonmischiefxx.buzznet.com/user/journal/2609381/guess-what-facts-you-didnt/">
    <title><![CDATA[Guess What?!?! Facts You Didn't Know About Me Day Seven]]></title>
    <link>http://xxmadisonmischiefxx.buzznet.com/user/journal/2609381/guess-what-facts-you-didnt/</link>
    <description><![CDATA[Today's fact is about my health and while it isn't intense, shocking or funny, it is kind of scary and does freak me out from time to time. My parents don't really know what is up and I may just go to the doctor soon to see why it happens often, but today's fact is the fact that I get sick very often and I just don't know why.

It seems that I get sick at least once or twice a month which isn't healthy and it isn't normal. Now I don't really understand this since I am active during the day and I eat pretty healthy. It just seems like I get sick with something and then very shortly after I get over it I get sick once again. A couple of months ago I had walking pneumonia and it was pretty bad and then when I was over that I had this mini flu where I was vomiting every five minutes. I also seem to get really bad colds after I get over stomach viruses and I get a headache at least once a day. I know this isn't normal at all and I should see a doctor and I will, I mean if something is wrong I want to  find a way that is going to make it better and healthier for me.]]></description>
	  	<dc:subject>Buzznet</dc:subject>
    <dc:creator>xxmadisonmischiefxx</dc:creator>
    <dc:date>2008-07-01T13:59:00Z</dc:date>
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  <item rdf:about="http://xxmadisonmischiefxx.buzznet.com/user/journal/2603861/guess-what-facts-you-didnt/">
    <title><![CDATA[Guess What?!?! Facts You Didn't Know About Me Day Six]]></title>
    <link>http://xxmadisonmischiefxx.buzznet.com/user/journal/2603861/guess-what-facts-you-didnt/</link>
    <description><![CDATA[Sorry for not posting this weekend I was super busy and there was some drama so I just didn't have it in me to write up a journal. Today's post however is about a decision I have made three years ago when I entered High School. I made this decision for many reasons and I am still sticking by it today. Today's fact is that I am Straight Edge and I will always be Straight Edge!

If you aren't familiar with Straight Edge it means that you don't drink, do drugs or have casual sex. I made this choice because I see the affects that drinking and drugs have on people. I have also seen many people who have gotten STD's because they have had sex and I don't want that. I know that you can have safe sex and be protected, but I want my first time to be with somebody I love and care about not just some random hook up. I especially don't want to have sex while in school and risk getting an STD or getting pregnant. Because of this I will probably wait until I am married to have sex because I will know then that I am truly in love and that it will be special. I have seen many of my peers get drunk and high at parties and it just doesn't appeal to me, I mean why drink so much and take drugs so that you vomit and have a horrible headache. Also when you are high and drunk you can sometimes say or do things that you wouldn't normally do that will embarrass you. I'm not the type of Straight Edge kid that is going to yell at people who drink, do drugs and who have sex I mean it is their choice and their body. They can do whatever they want to do so I won't preach to you about how you shouldn't do this stuff, I however have made this choice for myself and will stick to it. Most people my age claim to be Straight Edge but just say it because right now it is kind of a fad. For me it's a lifestyle and something that I live by and take seriously. If people can't understand this than that is really okay but I understand it but in the end I feel that is all that matters.]]></description>
	  	  		  	<category>ismael serrano</category>
	  	<dc:subject>Buzznet,ismael serrano</dc:subject>
    <dc:creator>xxmadisonmischiefxx</dc:creator>
    <dc:date>2008-06-30T13:06:00Z</dc:date>
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    <title><![CDATA[Guess What?!?! Facts You Didn't Know About Me Day Five]]></title>
    <link>http://xxmadisonmischiefxx.buzznet.com/user/journal/2589361/guess-what-facts-you-didnt/</link>
    <description><![CDATA[Today's fact is really intense and very personal and I actually didn't know if I should post it. While I am comfortable with my past and everything, i'm just a little unsure about sharing what I am about to share. I know that if I can talk about it and feel okay about it then I am that much closer to being comfortable with myself and coming to terms with my past. Today's fact is that I am severely depressed and because of that I am on intense medication.

It all started a couple of years ago when my groups of best friends decided that they no longer wanted to be friends with me and decided to make my life a living hell. I had no friends besides them so basically I was all alone which really horrible and they didn't make it any easier. I should have known that things were going to be bad since there had been distance for months, and I didn't really have a lot in common with them anymore. In school I had nobody to talk to and nobody to turn to so I kept to myself and sat alone, wishing it would be night time so I could cry myself to sleep. When I would walk through the hallways my friends would trip me and push me into lockers. They spread horrible rumors about me and said rude and mean things to my face and just randomly during class which really hurt. I remember being in a bathroom stall and hearing these two girls talking about me and it made me so sick that I threw up. Another time I went to a football game and I was jumped by my old friend's boyfriends and I have a feeling that if the person running the snack stand didn't witness it I would have been raped. Many times I tried to talk to my parents about this, however my younger sister was just starting to become friendly with my old friends and would say I was making stuff up. She cared more about being friends with them then her sister's own well being which really hurt. To this day my sister denies doing anything wrong which is why I don't communicate with her or try to have a relationship with her. With my parents thinking that I was making all of this stuff up and nobody believing me I turned to something that I feel could make me feel better, and that was cutting.

When I started cutting I thought that it made me feel better when really it didn't, it just left horrible scars on my skin. To cover them I would always wear baggy sweatshirts and long sleeve shirts. I would cut a lot and I thought that it would take away the pain when really it did nothing for me. I had nothing to turn to though and just thought that cutting was the answer and my cutting led to other things. I also became bulimic/anorexic and wore baggy clothes to not only hide my scars but to hide my scary skinny frame. I refused to eat during dinner and at lunch I would just sit in a bathroom stall and cry and think about how horrible my life was. My lowest point was when I came home from school one day and decided that I no longer wanted to live anymore. I tried to take my life that night and if it wasn't for my brother I would be dead right now. I spent a very long time in the hospital where I was diagnosed with depression and put on medication. I didn't return to school for the rest of the year and neither did my old friends on account that they were all suspended. Today I still take my medication and know that if I go off I will be in serious trouble, even though I have a supportive groups of friends now and I am happy. Whenever I see my old friends in the hallway at school they can't even look at me because they know how shitty they were to me. A couple have come up to to apologize but I just walked away or told them to go fuck themselves. Depression is hard to battle and sometimes my medication doesn't work and I just get really upset and cry. I don't get suicidal thoughts as much which is good because I want to now live a long and happy life. My past has only made me stronger and because of that I am who I am today. My name is Madison and I am tough as nails, a girl who loves life and will stand up for herself and friends no matter what!]]></description>
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    <dc:creator>xxmadisonmischiefxx</dc:creator>
    <dc:date>2008-06-27T15:03:00Z</dc:date>
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    <title><![CDATA[Guess What?!?! Facts You Didn't Know About Me Day Four]]></title>
    <link>http://xxmadisonmischiefxx.buzznet.com/user/journal/2582941/guess-what-facts-you-didnt/</link>
    <description><![CDATA[Today's fact is something that happens often but isn't uncommon. For some reason I keep on making bad decisions when it comes to certain things. What i'm talking about right now is my decisions with who I date, because whoever I choose turns out to be a complete douche bag. I am attracted to the bad boy that is a crappy boyfriend but is just attractive because well I mean bad boys are attractive. The guys I end up dating treat me like crap and think that I am nothing basically, and I continue to think that the relationship will get better but in the end it doesn't. Here is a nice long description of how crappy my past boyfriends have been:

One of my very first boyfriend's John was a complete and utter douche bag. He was a jerk from day one and treated me like crap, but I liked him so much and I thought things would get better. They didn't though and he would bash me in front of everybody and call me really rude and horrible names. One day I decided that I had just had enough so at a football game I confronted him and dumped him. He was my first real boyfriend and it sucks that my first relationship was shitty, but the relationships that followed were pretty bad. A couple months later I entered into a relationship with my friend Andrew. When he first asked me out I said no because he was my friend and I didn't want to ruin the great friendship we had. Later that night however I thought about it and realized that maybe I should just try it out. We ended up dating for a really long time and he was a great boyfriend, caring and really good to me! However when my friend and one of his best friend's Derek passed away in his sleep, it really took a toll on him and he started to change. He became a boy that drank and did drugs often which he had never done before because he claimed drugs and alcohol was stupid. He also started cheating on me and being really mean to me. I didn't know about his cheating at first, I did however know about the alcohol and drugs and I wanted to help him. I remember going to my friends house and when he came over he was so wasted and high he could barely stand. We all tried to go out for dinner but we ended up getting kicked out because of how horrible he was acting. On the day of finals I found out from my best friend at the time that he was cheating on me and that's when I ended it. I haven't really spoken to him since that day and the last I heard he was in and out of rehab trying to clean up his act.


After the calamity that was Andrew I decided to just not date that summer and to just be single. It worked and I was pretty happy that summer being single. In the fall however I thought I was in love with one of my best friends Ryan who I had spent most of the summer with. I told him over the phone and at first he didn't know how to react since well he was taken aback and I thought it meant he didn't feel the same. Upset I hung up the phone and was just all sad and gloomy, however the next day Ryan told me that he liked me also and that we should try out a relationship. We lasted a month because he doesn't really understand that when you are in a relationship you don't hook up with other girls (He hooked up with his friend right in front of me at a football game). He also didn't like the fact that I didn't really like parties since i'm straight edge(i'll talk about that in another entry). He was inconsiderate throughout the relationship and just plain out rude, not the guy that I thought I loved over the summer. Our breakup was bad and I haven't talked to him since then which almost a year ago, and he was also really upset that I had broken up with him through text message. I had broken up with him because of how bad he treated me and because I liked my co-worker from over the summer Aaron. Aaron had just gotten out of a horrible relationship with his girlfriend who treated him like crap and  he had told me that he really liked me. We dated for a really long time and he was such an amazing person, a complete gentleman which was refreshing since I had never been treated so well before. We decided a couple months ago that the relationship was getting too intense so we took a break. I thought that we would be getting back together shortly after the break but I guess he thought otherwise. We had said that we would go to Junior Prom together even though we had been broken up, however at the last time minute he told me that he wanted to go with his friend Leah. Of course I was hurt because he had promised that we would still go, but it didn't matter anyway because I didn't end up going because I was sick with Pneumonia. I heard that at prom Aaron and Leah got frisky and by the time I got back to school they were an item. It hurt to see them together because I didn't think he would would bounce back into a relationship so quickly, I mean I thought it was just a short break and that we would be back together in no time. While with Leah he spread horrible rumors about me and just was a complete ass to me whenever I tried to talk him. The final straw was when he and Leah broke up and he hooked up with my then best friend Paige. Paige and I are no longer friends and to be honest I don't want friends that are going to hurt me and betray me like that. I don't talk to Aaron anymore and honestly I just don't care. He deserves what he is and that is nasty trash!


In the end I can't seem to find a good guy that won't be a horrible boyfriend and treat me like crap. I am single at the moment however there is a boy that I like and the feeling is mutual. However he is another bad boy who is openly into alcohol and weed which is really not my thing. I don't know what will happen but all I know is that I am scared to enter into another relationship because of how shitty my past one's have been. I mean I think I give great relationship advice that helps people have good healthy relationships, yet I never have a good relationship and I follow my own advice. I think I may just give up on finding love in highschool I mean I am after all 17 years old, I think it's going to be a couple more years until I fall in love!]]></description>
	  	<dc:subject>Buzznet</dc:subject>
    <dc:creator>xxmadisonmischiefxx</dc:creator>
    <dc:date>2008-06-26T12:49:00Z</dc:date>
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    <title><![CDATA[Guess What?!?! Facts You Didn't Know About Me Day Three]]></title>
    <link>http://xxmadisonmischiefxx.buzznet.com/user/journal/2577271/guess-what-facts-you-didnt/</link>
    <description><![CDATA[Today's journal is going to be about addiction which can sometimes be a sticky subject. Some people are addicted to different things like drugs or alcohol, all I know is that addiction is never a good thing and it should be stopped. My addiction is a little different and I thought I would share it with you guys. Today I am going to share the fact that I am addicted to Diet Pepsi, and I know this sounds really weird and kind of stupid but it really is a serious addiction and I need to stop.

I started drinking Diet Pepsi excessively about a year ago and my parents told me that I needed to slow down on my Diet Pepsi intake. For some reason whenever I drink Diet Pepsi I get this adrenaline rush and it just makes me super duper happy. I work better and I just perform tasks better which is honestly quite odd. I have at least 4 or 5 cups of Diet Pepsi a day which is really bad, and if I don't let up on my Diet Pepsi intake I will ruin my bones. Not only that but I recently read a report that drinking a lot of Diet Pepsi can cause cancer which is really scary. I know this is a real addiction because if I don't drink Diet Pepsi I get withdrawl symptoms. I get super cranky, I shake a lot and my stomach and head start to hurt. I know that my addiction isn't as serious as an addiction to drugs or alcohol, but it really is very unhealthy and I do need to stop. I need to make my bones strong and my parents said that if I don't stop they will have to give me supplements because of the lack of nutrients I am getting. 

In the end right now Diet Pepsi is the enemy and is destroying my bones. I will stop and I am trying so hard to stop but it really is hard. I've been drinking juices and other drinks, but all I really want is my Diet Pepsi. I need to replace my addiction with something healthy. Maybe one day I can drink Diet Pepsi in a healthy manner, but right now all I need to do is step away from the Diet Pepsi!]]></description>
	  	<dc:subject>Buzznet</dc:subject>
    <dc:creator>xxmadisonmischiefxx</dc:creator>
    <dc:date>2008-06-25T12:33:00Z</dc:date>
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